I was raised by a mother who told me how fat I was, lazy, stupid, and how no one in the family liked me. He tells the story of how his Evangelical faith dissolved into atheism when he studied the Bible. There is nothing in my life that gives me back something. Thanks Natalie for all your input. Things have become so tedious, complicated and impersonal.
This started to take a real toll on my self esteem and my self worth. He is textbook emotionally abusive and violent. He cared in his own way, but he never cared enough or he would not have let me go. Like always, the good times are on his terms. I did sports and piano too. Most often, people are just more focused on their own lives.
But I am a human like everyone else, and although introverted, I do enjoy the company of others at times. As a Christian I prayed but I could not feel better about being me. This from a guy who ran scalding hot and freezing cold. Ideally, other adults in your life could help you out with this situation. If you often feel worthless or unloved, take steps to improve your life. Thanks for sharing…You are all in my prayers.
First, parents are just people like all of us who make mistakes. Watching sad movies and television shows are likely to have a negative effect on you. Because of this i feel soo lonely, unwanted and useless. Our government was shut down for a good amount of time, leaving debts unpaid. Hey, I was tired too! It makes me sooooo happy when people choose short term pain for long term gain. It is just nice to see others pointing that out so it is not just me that is trying to make myself feel better others believe it too.
Russia is pratically under economic siege, you just hope they give up and make all the concessions you have to make to retain independence. Our military is shrinking rapidly, and our equipment is mostly old as shit, the Chinese have been pouring money into their military for years. I also have been considering that when I go into a situation hoping for the best and being friendly and really trying only to be left out and isolated once again…it is highly possible that I am projecting my feeling of dislike toward the new people. But it made me so mad that I always have to think about everyone else, and yet no one cares about my feelings. Their missing you maybe just them feeling the loss of not having you in thier life anymore. You are not a ping-pong ball!! My little kids are the same way.
I am very sorry to hear of your parents illness but they are your parents — not his. I was hurt, confused, scared and angry. I keep wondering if she cares about me still. And be doubly thankful for all the people in your life who are always there for you. I have a very hard time with someone like this. If I ever go to a party, its cause I invited myself.
It is like the more successful I am in my business the harder she has tried to break me mentally. And usually she uses my business as a target for her attacks. Regular visits with a licensed psychologist can help you find coping mechanisms and make positive life changes. You have it in you — just reach for it. They deal with this stuff all the time and nothing you say will be new to them. I really try to hard to be a good wife give him all the love and support.
They seem to b crazy about me and then all of a sudden. Anybody can tell you they care but actually caring is a very different thing. You would not want your dear child, mother or best friend held by the hair and hit in the face so do not waste another minute caring what this person thinks. All the family outings I was excluded from and the way my family makes me feel like an outcast with their words and behaviors. How is my inner critic actually altering my behavior? So, I choose to avoid them so as to not upset them. She chased him for a month then gave up.